I had to take a few days off, I was just too sick. Today I also felt like complete crap.
But I couldn't wait another day. So tonight I tried it. For the first time ever. As previously mentioned, I've started the first level plenty of times. Done it for a day or two. That's it. Until last week when I FINALLY completed Level One in 11 days.
Level Two.
S.U.C.K.E.D.
Oh my gosh. That was the hardest workout of my life. Ever. Of all time. I had to stop a few times to cough uncontrollably (still sick) and a few times, I thought my arms, legs, abs, or entire body might explode.
That girl is no freaking joke.
But I did it. :)
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Monday, July 2, 2012
Monday, June 25, 2012
Sigh. :(
Sigh. I feel like I failed already. :(
Today is Monday. Yesterday, I was supposed to do workout #8 of Level One of JM's 30 Day Shred. And I didn't do it. We were busy (it was our makeup Father's Day for Adam) and I spent a lot of time making brunch, then we cleaned, then we all got ready to go shopping, and when we got home, I wanted to try out a few cleaning methods that I had bought supplies for. And then Adam wanted to watch a movie with me that we had rented. So when all was said and done...I didn't workout yesterday. And I'm still upset about it. When really I need to just let it go and get moving today. It was just one day, a rest for one day.
But I feel so guilty. :(
And I haven't exercised yet today, but I had to wait for a little while because our air wasn't work downstairs (it was hot, hot, hot) and I waited for the service tech. to come and finish it. Btw, today I'm thrilled to be a renter!!! He did and he wasn't too long but it was still after noon by the time he finished. No excuses, though, I'm heading downstairs to get started. I needed some motivation so I sat down to browse 30DS results photos. And I did. So I'm ready to get going.
But I've got to say, I'm not seeing ANY results. None. Zip. Zilch. Nada. Oh wait, except for the fact that my weigh has increased in the last week. Yep. I've lost nothing and gained at least a pound. Supremely encouraging, I must say. :-/ I know, I know, muscle weighs more than fat, but I gotta tell you, I'm not seeing any fat disappear and certainly no muscles appearing. I'm gonna keep on....but only with a faint hope that all of this is actually working.
Anyway, it's time.
ps. I mailed in my registration for next week's 5k. :) I don't like running, but I LOVE competition. And I'm not in it to beat others because I won't (my age group is typically among the fastest runners), but I'm going to beat myself. I want to beat a previous time I've run. THAT will make me super happy.
EDITED TO ADD: I did get my workout done today. :) I still don't feel like I'm doing much, but when I get started, I can tell a pretty decent difference in my endurance. I can totally make it to the end of the workout and I'm not nearly as worn out and winded when I'm done. I only have two more days at Level One and then I move to Level Two...which I've never even seen before, let alone attempted. But I'm ready. I'm ready for the change and ready to push myself to do more.
Today is Monday. Yesterday, I was supposed to do workout #8 of Level One of JM's 30 Day Shred. And I didn't do it. We were busy (it was our makeup Father's Day for Adam) and I spent a lot of time making brunch, then we cleaned, then we all got ready to go shopping, and when we got home, I wanted to try out a few cleaning methods that I had bought supplies for. And then Adam wanted to watch a movie with me that we had rented. So when all was said and done...I didn't workout yesterday. And I'm still upset about it. When really I need to just let it go and get moving today. It was just one day, a rest for one day.
But I feel so guilty. :(
And I haven't exercised yet today, but I had to wait for a little while because our air wasn't work downstairs (it was hot, hot, hot) and I waited for the service tech. to come and finish it. Btw, today I'm thrilled to be a renter!!! He did and he wasn't too long but it was still after noon by the time he finished. No excuses, though, I'm heading downstairs to get started. I needed some motivation so I sat down to browse 30DS results photos. And I did. So I'm ready to get going.
But I've got to say, I'm not seeing ANY results. None. Zip. Zilch. Nada. Oh wait, except for the fact that my weigh has increased in the last week. Yep. I've lost nothing and gained at least a pound. Supremely encouraging, I must say. :-/ I know, I know, muscle weighs more than fat, but I gotta tell you, I'm not seeing any fat disappear and certainly no muscles appearing. I'm gonna keep on....but only with a faint hope that all of this is actually working.
Anyway, it's time.
ps. I mailed in my registration for next week's 5k. :) I don't like running, but I LOVE competition. And I'm not in it to beat others because I won't (my age group is typically among the fastest runners), but I'm going to beat myself. I want to beat a previous time I've run. THAT will make me super happy.
EDITED TO ADD: I did get my workout done today. :) I still don't feel like I'm doing much, but when I get started, I can tell a pretty decent difference in my endurance. I can totally make it to the end of the workout and I'm not nearly as worn out and winded when I'm done. I only have two more days at Level One and then I move to Level Two...which I've never even seen before, let alone attempted. But I'm ready. I'm ready for the change and ready to push myself to do more.
Saturday, June 23, 2012
I think I can, I think I can...
I haven't done my workout yet, mostly because I've been sitting at the computer for the last few hours printing out travel binder activities for my boys.
We're going on vacation to Pigeon Forge, TN! We can't wait! Though the trip isn't the longest we've ever been on, it's still a six hour drive. I'm trying to arm myself with an arsenal of activities to keep the grumpies at bay. Since I'm already working on it, I decided to also make travel binders for my nephews. :) For Landen, it's just making a third binder (his will be exactly like Adisson and Zander's) but for Boden and Cooper, I've had to look up a lot of things and make a whole separate binder. At 3 and 4, they obviously can't do some of the things the bigger boys can do. Also, since Zander is still in the pre-k/Kindergarten stage, his binder will have all of the big boy activities and some of the little guy activities. Jaxon is not getting a binder at all but a bag filled with hands on stuff.
The girls...well, the girls are getting goodies from Aunt Cole, but probably not until we get to vacation. There's not much I can make to entertain two 8 month olds on a trip from OH to TN.
EDITED:
We had plans to go see a minor league baseball team today and our plans shifted and we had to meet up earlier than expected, but I still did it. I still got my workout with Jillian in. :)
Then we went to see the baseball game and it was HOT but it was fun!! I'm so glad we went.
We're going on vacation to Pigeon Forge, TN! We can't wait! Though the trip isn't the longest we've ever been on, it's still a six hour drive. I'm trying to arm myself with an arsenal of activities to keep the grumpies at bay. Since I'm already working on it, I decided to also make travel binders for my nephews. :) For Landen, it's just making a third binder (his will be exactly like Adisson and Zander's) but for Boden and Cooper, I've had to look up a lot of things and make a whole separate binder. At 3 and 4, they obviously can't do some of the things the bigger boys can do. Also, since Zander is still in the pre-k/Kindergarten stage, his binder will have all of the big boy activities and some of the little guy activities. Jaxon is not getting a binder at all but a bag filled with hands on stuff.
The girls...well, the girls are getting goodies from Aunt Cole, but probably not until we get to vacation. There's not much I can make to entertain two 8 month olds on a trip from OH to TN.
EDITED:
We had plans to go see a minor league baseball team today and our plans shifted and we had to meet up earlier than expected, but I still did it. I still got my workout with Jillian in. :)
Then we went to see the baseball game and it was HOT but it was fun!! I'm so glad we went.
Thursday, June 21, 2012
How do you eat an elephant? By doing a push up?? Wait, what???
Here's the thing with exercise. I don't like it. And truthfully, I expect instant results. Like, work out, shower, step on scale...noticeable weight difference. And sadly, life isn't like that. It takes work, which is probably another reason I don't like it.
But today, on day 5, I exercised again. Sadly, there's no magic wand and I still see no difference. :( But I'm trying. I do it. I give it my all, every time, no skimping* and I do it. The warm up, 3 circuits, the cool down...I do it all. And I even do all of my cardio on my fitness trampoline. Truthfully, I do it because my CVID has left me with a fair amount of joint pain in my knees and Jillian LOVES her some jumping jacks...and my knees loathe them. Being on the trampoline makes it MUCH more tolerable. However, I like to think in my head that it's an added bonus of difficulty therefore, even better for me!! :)
Plus, the boys seem interested in doing some exercising as well. What I want them to see, though, is that Mom did it. She said she would do it and she did it. And during her workouts she didn't cheat, she didn't quit, and when it hurt she kept going. That's what I want them to see in me. :)
In other news, I'm still totally loving my living room set up. On one of my couches you absolutely cannot see the TV. However, I have two 3-cushion couches, one 2-cushion loveseat, and one single cushion overstuffed chair and ottoman. There's absolutely no way you're gonna see the TV from every seat in the room. Plus, all that extra butt space is more for company and the tv isn't on then anyway.
The boss is officially airborne qualified. That means that after three weeks of school and FIVE successful jumps out of a real life flying in the air airplane, he's officially a paratrooper. :) And we're so proud of him! And he comes home tomorrow!! I'm super fussy when he's gone so all four of my boys are gonna be happy to have him home!
I've also been thinking about vacation plans. And really I just can't wait!!! :)
Anyway, I need to go. Also, I wanna say that I've been trying pretty hard to eat better this week, too, in addition to my exercising. Fresh veggies for snacks, no junk food, no sweets, no soda. First of all, I'm freaking starving, but I want this very badly.
Oh and my * from up there...I suck at push-ups. I can never do as many as Jillian wants me to do, but I try and I get better EVERY SINGLE DAY! By the end of the month, I wanna do real push ups and not girly ones, but right now, I'm just excited that I can add another one pushup on my final count for the day. I'm up to 13 without stopping. I know, not that big of a deal for some, but I hate HATE HHHAAATTTEEE push-ups and severely lack the strength to do them. But I'm getting better. A little at a time.
But today, on day 5, I exercised again. Sadly, there's no magic wand and I still see no difference. :( But I'm trying. I do it. I give it my all, every time, no skimping* and I do it. The warm up, 3 circuits, the cool down...I do it all. And I even do all of my cardio on my fitness trampoline. Truthfully, I do it because my CVID has left me with a fair amount of joint pain in my knees and Jillian LOVES her some jumping jacks...and my knees loathe them. Being on the trampoline makes it MUCH more tolerable. However, I like to think in my head that it's an added bonus of difficulty therefore, even better for me!! :)
Plus, the boys seem interested in doing some exercising as well. What I want them to see, though, is that Mom did it. She said she would do it and she did it. And during her workouts she didn't cheat, she didn't quit, and when it hurt she kept going. That's what I want them to see in me. :)
In other news, I'm still totally loving my living room set up. On one of my couches you absolutely cannot see the TV. However, I have two 3-cushion couches, one 2-cushion loveseat, and one single cushion overstuffed chair and ottoman. There's absolutely no way you're gonna see the TV from every seat in the room. Plus, all that extra butt space is more for company and the tv isn't on then anyway.
The boss is officially airborne qualified. That means that after three weeks of school and FIVE successful jumps out of a real life flying in the air airplane, he's officially a paratrooper. :) And we're so proud of him! And he comes home tomorrow!! I'm super fussy when he's gone so all four of my boys are gonna be happy to have him home!
I've also been thinking about vacation plans. And really I just can't wait!!! :)
Anyway, I need to go. Also, I wanna say that I've been trying pretty hard to eat better this week, too, in addition to my exercising. Fresh veggies for snacks, no junk food, no sweets, no soda. First of all, I'm freaking starving, but I want this very badly.
Oh and my * from up there...I suck at push-ups. I can never do as many as Jillian wants me to do, but I try and I get better EVERY SINGLE DAY! By the end of the month, I wanna do real push ups and not girly ones, but right now, I'm just excited that I can add another one pushup on my final count for the day. I'm up to 13 without stopping. I know, not that big of a deal for some, but I hate HATE HHHAAATTTEEE push-ups and severely lack the strength to do them. But I'm getting better. A little at a time.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Monday, June 18, 2012
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Back at it...again.
Vacation to Pigeon Forge is in 35 days. And I'm already anxious.
Why?? :)
I'll say it here, because no one reads this...I have some body image issues. Like sometimes it's all I can think about. I can point out and exacerbate every single flaw, real or imagined, from head to toe...and I do. All day. :( I keep waiting for the time where I can feel like I'm ready to be who I am, to be myself, to be comfortable in my skin. And that time isn't here. How long will it take? I wish I knew.
And I'm anxious for vacation because the kids want to go swimming. And I'm going white water rafting with my brothers and husband (not that any of them make me feel uncomfortable...they don't). And all that means a bathing suit. Or at least shorts. And I don't wear either. I certainly don't wear a bathing suit. I did two years ago when we were at the beach. We went on vacation just a few weeks after my hospital stay and I had shed LOTS of weight and I was almost ok with my bathing suit then. Now....oh geez.
Now, I've put on 20 pounds in the last 18 months. Not a big deal I'm sure. But it is to me. It's a very big deal. And the thought of it fills my thoughts every. single. day.
So I have 35 days. That's more than I need to hang out with Jillian and her 30 Day Shred. And by the grace of God and only with the strength He'll give me will I be able to conquer 30 days of working out. I never have. Not one time ever in my life. So what makes this time different? I wish I knew that, too.
But I want it. I want to feel better. Just because there are three boys (instead of girls) living here doesn't mean I can't poison their minds with body image issues, also. And I'm well on my way to doing just that. Because I'm negative, about my body, about myself, about my intelligence. And they shouldn't hear that.
Because I'm not weak. I'm not stupid. I'm not incapable.
I can do it. And I will do. Maybe. :) I'm still working on that part.
But I did it today. Day One (again) of my 30 Day Shred. It's not necessarily the weight I wanna lose, the number isn't as important as how I feel when I'm done, the difference I'll see when I've worked so hard. And I've started this journey MANY times...only to stop on day TWO or THREE!!! What?!!! But today, I did it. And I didn't quit. And I didn't want to. Today I owned that workout.
Why?? :)
I'll say it here, because no one reads this...I have some body image issues. Like sometimes it's all I can think about. I can point out and exacerbate every single flaw, real or imagined, from head to toe...and I do. All day. :( I keep waiting for the time where I can feel like I'm ready to be who I am, to be myself, to be comfortable in my skin. And that time isn't here. How long will it take? I wish I knew.
And I'm anxious for vacation because the kids want to go swimming. And I'm going white water rafting with my brothers and husband (not that any of them make me feel uncomfortable...they don't). And all that means a bathing suit. Or at least shorts. And I don't wear either. I certainly don't wear a bathing suit. I did two years ago when we were at the beach. We went on vacation just a few weeks after my hospital stay and I had shed LOTS of weight and I was almost ok with my bathing suit then. Now....oh geez.
Now, I've put on 20 pounds in the last 18 months. Not a big deal I'm sure. But it is to me. It's a very big deal. And the thought of it fills my thoughts every. single. day.
So I have 35 days. That's more than I need to hang out with Jillian and her 30 Day Shred. And by the grace of God and only with the strength He'll give me will I be able to conquer 30 days of working out. I never have. Not one time ever in my life. So what makes this time different? I wish I knew that, too.
But I want it. I want to feel better. Just because there are three boys (instead of girls) living here doesn't mean I can't poison their minds with body image issues, also. And I'm well on my way to doing just that. Because I'm negative, about my body, about myself, about my intelligence. And they shouldn't hear that.
Because I'm not weak. I'm not stupid. I'm not incapable.
I can do it. And I will do. Maybe. :) I'm still working on that part.
But I did it today. Day One (again) of my 30 Day Shred. It's not necessarily the weight I wanna lose, the number isn't as important as how I feel when I'm done, the difference I'll see when I've worked so hard. And I've started this journey MANY times...only to stop on day TWO or THREE!!! What?!!! But today, I did it. And I didn't quit. And I didn't want to. Today I owned that workout.
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