So tired. Treatment went well today, even though my lovely idiotic doctor told me I need to stop gaining weight. No kidding?!? I certainly am not TRYING to gain weight. It also makes me feel like I'm right when I look in the mirror and see a large person. Ugh....anyway
Then there was soccer practice that ran so late we had to pull Adi off the field to make it to Scouts. Then we get to Scouts and the ONE other family in our den didn't show up.
Sigh.
Also, I feel like no matter how very hard I'm trying to do better...at anything, at everything, it seriously isn't happening. It's like I take so many steps forward and then several MILES backwards. As far as I know right now, the boys and I will be moving into a MUCH smaller house in five months. Which means I have to get rid of LOTS and LOTS of stuff. But every time I enter a room, I just get overwhelmed with all of it and leave. So nothing gets done.
I feel so overwhelmed, so exasperated and like I'm literally in the middle of the ocean, trying to keep my head above water.....and it's pulling me under faster than I can catch my breath. How can finding peace and balance be such an exhausting journey?
Anyway, off to crochet...at least that will calm me down. :)
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